So I have to decide if I want to do a PhD… and become a professor. Specifically, my research advisor asked me if I would like to apply for a training grant from the national institute of health that would cover tuition, stipend and what not if I plan to teach. Ugh. I don't know if I want to, and I don't know if I don't want to. I don't think of myself as a professor, they're all too self-motivated, while I am the opposite of that. I need someone to put their foot on my face and tell me exactly what to do and give me due dates. Otherwise, I'm lost.
This would be a good experience for me, I'd get to do a PhD for free (cough cough) but then I'd have to go into a professorial position. I can't teach. Matt knows that. Mandy thinks otherwise (I once taught her the basics of electricity for her MCATs). Plus, it's in a field that I've no experience in. It's medical stuff! Gosh. Someone tell me what I should do.